I particularly enjoyed the meditation portion of this. Really great work, Dakota!
I am so grateful for being here and doing this work. Another layer deeper, new insights. I was so surprised at the first prompt in our packet in regards to what emotion tends to resurface most for me and what feels most difficult to express. I was certain I knew the answer to both (been living life on purpose vs auto pilot since 2008) but was surprised at what I uncovered. I used Karla McLaren’s list of emotions to help and support me in getting away from the basic mad, sad, glad and afraid.
This had me sitting in some heaviness, happiness, and insight all week. Riding the rollercoaster of being in the south, feeling its medicine deeply. This thing called life is so beautiful to me, choosing to walk it awake and aware, being with it all… the messy, magical and mundane.
I felt extreme resistance to doing the first exercise to go back and fully feel past stuck emotions. It almost felt sticky and gross to even consider. But I used my journal and did some free writing and just let it flow. It came streaming out, first it was ugly but it morphed into something that felt good by the end. I was here for the last North session which was good to get my feet wet and learn some of the basics of the medicine wheel but I feel that me finding my way back for the South is where I truly need to be. I feel that working with emotions over this South direction is going to open me up to the spiritual shift I know I am capable of. I am so thankful for this guidance!
So many light bulb moments occurred this past week! Things are shifting, changing, opening, releasing and healing! Realizations are happening everytime I turn around! The flood gates are open … Lol . It’s a rollercoaster of emotions, but nonetheless I welcome it all with open arms and heart! I am so grateful for this mentorship and community! Blessings to all!
Wow… much work to do. I’m in a different place in my life than I was a year ago. Everything was so new then. I was feeding my soul. Now I realize I was only eating the hors d ‘oeuvres… this time maybe I’m getting into the Main course. Lots to learn and a lot more to chew on.
Thank you Dakota for this audio version, not sure what happened but I understood most of what you were talking about and what I struggled with didn’t upset me this time either. It is early days in the south but I feel I am making progress. Aho
I definitely got in on the right place on the medicine wheel, going through lots of emotional stuff lately, I did enjoy the guided visualization and was able to feel each of the emotions and finally at the end of it felt kind a like angels were holding me, which is good because I was feeling really alone. I did notice with the various emotions that was hard for me to have just one emotion sometimes like with sadness There seem to be some anger, as a matter fact with just about everything there seem to be some anger, anyway I’m really glad to be on this journey and I have been long interested in the medicine wheel and the wheel of life, And when I was a kid I used to draw a mandalas all the time I may take up that practice again. I did have fun putting together my south altar,
I used to have a problem with inappropriate reaction to anger and on rare occasions still do. This is something I have been working on for a long time. I always try to stretch that moment of decision and react appropriately. It is not much of an issue anymore. I used to be frightened by everything and build up long paranoid stories in my mind. I dealt with that many, many years ago by doing a Buddhist practice called walking the razor’s edge. I also try to always be mindful of staying in the present moment where everything is always okay. I have close friends and don’t analyse visits after they are over. I am quite sure the other person is only thinking how they seemed, not about me. I am having a real problem with anxiety by putting myself out there in this tribe though. It is so important to me, yet every time we have a meeting or I go on slack I’m anxious that I will be chewed out, put down or in some form rejected; even though everyone has been so welcoming. I want to be in this tribe, but can’t seem to shake this sense of foreboding. I don’t want to be a coward and step out, but I really don’t know how to deal with this. Perhaps I will walk the razor’s edge again though it is a very painful process. Perhaps tomorrow while Larry is napping I will go through it again as you are all worth it to me. Any advice for me with this? Perhaps there is an gentler way?
Thank you for being so brave and showing up in this community, even when it’s scary. How can we support you? Are there tangible things that we can do to let you know that you are safe?
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