I enjoy self-love. Nurturing and talking kindly to myself. 13 years ago I left my husband. That took me on a self-love journey. I had no intention of reconciling my marriage but a higher power had other plans. After 9 months of living apart we reconciled. I did many of the items listed in the four directions. Now, as our children leave/left the nest we are empty nesters, celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary this year, and both turn 50 this year … me in a couple weeks. With this lesson I am noticing how deficient I am in some of these areas again. A reminder that nothing stays the same. We ebb and flow. I can see how I moved through the arc when I left my husband and yet I find myself back here again. With the same big questions. Yet this time I come to this awareness with a gentleness. Still uneasy not knowing the answers yet knowing they will come when I tend to caring for myself, again, more deeply.
I didn’t make the life call and just want to say wow. They are just as powerful as the first one and I can’t wait to begin attending them live again beginning next week. So in awe and gratitude of everyone able to show up and share, and then Dakota, doing what she does. I really love being here and doing this work, even when it means watching YouTube’s and crying my eyes out, accessing emotion so it can move through me. Thank you to everyone. Grateful to share this space with you.
I am finally starting to feel a little more comfortable in the South direction. Self love is not so much of an alien conception as it was when I started the mentorship. I used to fight against it, except for where my stump was concerned, because I didn’t feel worthy, I didn’t see what all the fuss was about. Now I am willing to learn about but I still don’t like the the water element. No worries, can’t fix everything at one go. Writing this makes me happy.
Writing my Arc story has been amazing and a very powerful tool. I wrote 6 pages on my computer. It has allowed me to look back fully at my childhood wounds. I complete to circle. In the second act 2, I realised how much I am proud of myself I love me. I will redo this exercise in a couple of months to see how my act have unfolded. Thank for all this teaching. I cant believe how much I have learnt in only two weeks.
I found myself really relating the idea of life playing out in acts. This direction is really opening up for me the patterns that I keep repeating that aren’t doing me any good, especially when it comes to relationships. It seems so obvious now… all of the reasons behind my past relationships. I guess that’s the first step though seeing the pattern so I can move passed it. It’s empowering to know what’s holding me back and to know that I hold the power to change it.
Having a hard time with self love, Didn’t really like the guided meditation, but maybe that’s because I found it hard to believe and I didn’t feel like me talking to me, so just goes to show that I need to more work in this area obviously, I don’t know why I find this so hard, but I think there’s a reason I got on a medicine wheel in the south, I am doing more mirror work and soul dates, or at least thinking about it, so thank you all for welcoming me to the circle, and I hope it’s all right to be this honest about where I am
Just re-read my comment, and I think I actually do love myself, but it’s really really hard to admit to anybody, mostly because I’m so afraid that you won’t love me sometimes I think it’s not all right for me to love me, anyway I did love myself enough tonight to quit work early and go on a soul date with myself and my dog at sunset for a nice walk
Thank you for sharing Jackie
I started the mentorship last year in the South direction and found it quite challenging, my self love was low, I am doing a lot better and doing this for the second time I am realising how much I have moved forward. I still have a way to go. I have had a couple of people say things about me lately that were insightful and complimentary and it surprises me that people would see and say these things about me, I have never thought particularly highly of myself and didn’t think that others would see anything other than what I felt about myself also, so I am ?? hmm! yes shocked, when I hear them talk about me this way, almost saying, Who are you talking about?? So I am starting to see myself in a different light, becoming more confident, more self aware, loving and caring towards myself. Who would have thought so thank you to Dakota and everyone here for creating this space of love and nurturing.
I have loved myself recently for a short while after doing an integration, so I know if I keep working at it I can do it. I’m just kind of flailing around withit right now. I love inner beloved. This isn’t the first time I have listened to it. It is lovely and warms my heart.
I started in the south 2 years ago, this is now my third time I do south. When I started I could not say that I loved myself. Today I can. During these years I have developed so much self love for my myself, working with boundaries, soul dates, my body and health, the food I eat, my relationships. I feel like I am in the fourth stage. I have worked a lot the past 6 month with living from love and from my heart. My goal is to have a healthy relationship with someone equal to me. I think I am soon there. I feel that I today can be much more authentic when I am with people in a private space. I am much more confident, I take space, but I can also listen (without giving advice) I feel that I know myself much better and that I have tools to help me if I need it in different situations. First summer I was in South direction I listened to the meditation Inner beloved every day, it was my morning routine. I had to boost myself, and it worked. Today I listen to the meditation occasionally if something happened and I feel that I need that boost to remind me. At the moment I am doing my own meditation every night, giving all my body parts that I am not proud of, love. I also been doing a meditation last week to open up my heart, that put me in contact with my higher self in a way that I have not experienced before. What i feel is that I have taken away so much negative stuff around me, that I finally can focus on the positive way of opening the heart and be vulnerable.
Congrats to you Hanna! I am looking for this kind of heart opening transformation. Thanks for sharing your story.
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